Dear Eriq by Sydnie Kupferberg

You had me crying

Bathtub ledge falling beneath my fingertips


“Remember I love you guys”

Why do we have to remember?

Why is it the past?


Within those tracks

I am sifting through your remnants

Your final breath is gone

Your laugh is hiding

Your grin is crackling in my palm


How could you believe you were worthless?

Now I feel worthless, for letting you leave


I wish for your final breath more than my own

If only your laugh could be found

Your grin could heal


I am reaching out, holding what I never had

You were a privilege that was never mine