You had me crying
Bathtub ledge falling beneath my fingertips
“Remember I love you guys”
Why do we have to remember?
Why is it the past?
Within those tracks
I am sifting through your remnants
Your final breath is gone
Your laugh is hiding
Your grin is crackling in my palm
How could you believe you were worthless?
Now I feel worthless, for letting you leave
I wish for your final breath more than my own
If only your laugh could be found
Your grin could heal
I am reaching out, holding what I never had
You were a privilege that was never mine