These Thoughts by A.Y Pan

Thoughts wrap around my head
It drains the life from my eyes
And turns the tips of my mouth
Towards where it claims me to be,
A speck of dust,
And, “Nothing more and nothing to be.” 
I shut my tired eyes
Hoping to escape in a dream
Where I find love and hope
Where everything I longed
Is just within reach
But I wake up
To find the same gray sky
They flood into me once again
As the tears pour out of my eyes.
It hurts.
This pain in my chest
I know the way I handle this
Really isn’t the best
But for now,
Even with these thoughts,
I hide under my covers
And let my soul rest.